Dissociation is an art form that I have mastered. I disconnect from this world, my body. the only thing that remains is my mind and that is barely hanging by a thread. Is she normal? Is she mad? not even I know the answer to that question. Sanity is such a fragile thing, not extremely complex yet it remains a mystery to me. I fade in and out. Who am I today? A catatonic state is bittersweet. The writhing, the sweating and the tears. Heart beating. Mind dancing around like a ceremonial pow wow dance. I like it. scratch that I love it. Im on the brink of madness. Laughing inside, a cackle that escalates into a hysterical scream. I hate this person inside. So histrionic. indecisive. Let me go. Release this demon. exorcise me. Forgive me father for i have sinned, but should i forgive you? fuck you for giving me this cross I bear. Amen, Amen.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Introductions can be so mundane. Impersonal I suppose. Ill give you the quick 411 on what I plan to achieve in this Blog, besides world domination. Clementine is the name, pleased to meet you. 22 years of age, I get better with age. I like to compare myself to 1787 Château Lafite. Expensive, luxurious and rich with taste. Fashion and good taste are my addictions. Telling it like it is makes my world go round. People who read good books intrigue me. Passe is not always a bad term. I believe that once all the fashionistas are calling something passe, then its time to embrace it. Originality is something you are born with. Good looks can be obtained through many outlets, originality i believe cannot. I promise never to fill this blog with pointless banter that will bore you. Trust me? I think you should.